Roller Coaster Ride or Chemo Treatments

I have never enjoyed roller coasters. Nothing about them appeals to me. They usually start off with a small taste of what's to come. A short sharp turn, a small drop and then something soothing, dim twinkling lights, cool breeze. Meant to calm you yet inside you know it coming, your neck gets rocked back, your body's weights is being pulled back yet your being pulled forward. You're dizzy. And then opposite now you are being plunged downward fast, your stomach in your throat, your screaming inside your head and you don't know what is coming next. That nice little calm place, just to caught your breathe, before it starts again. No control. Well Ladies and Gentlemen welcome to Chemo Land. Just got done with the first ride, just when I was thinking I can't go on like this, it diminishes, into the nice dim twinkling lights part. Your body remembers some of it for a few more days and then when you think "Its not that bad" its time to get go on another ride. You have no control. And you know its going to be bad because people who go on these rides are called "survivors". And you get all kinds of free stuff. Nothing that you really want but things to make the ride easier, the ride you never wanted to get on. Now, I feel like I'm on a Merry go Round.